Will I See You Tonight?

‘It was at times a long, difficult road. But I’m glad it was long and difficult, because if I hadn’t gone through hell to get there, the lesson might not have been as clear. You see, kids, right from the moment I met your mom, I knew I have to love this woman as much as I can for as long as I can, and I can never stop loving her, not even for a second. I carried that lesson with me through every stupid fight we ever had, every 5:00 a.m. Christmas morning, every sleepy Sunday afternoon, through every speed bump. Every pang of jealousy or boredom or uncertainty that came our way, I carried that lesson with me. And I carried it with me when she got sick. Even then, in what can only be called the worst of times, all I could do was look at her and thank God, thank every god there is, or ever was, or will be, and the whole universe, and anyone else I can possibly thank that I saw that beautiful girl on that train platform, and that I had the guts to stand up, walk over to her, tap her on the shoulder, open my mouth, and speak.’

Those are the words of the voice of Ted Mosby in the most poignant scene of the final episode of How I Met Your Mother. Come on, you know I loved that show a lot. I guess it’s odd that for something that ended almost six months ago to this day, now is the time that I’m kind of doing a recap or review here, if you will. Anyway he says those words as a prelude to the exact instance of meeting the mother, thus the show finally fulfils its promise. Much has been said about its ending and what an injustice it was by the producers to have the mother, Tracy McConnell die after barely getting into the set, and finally being capped off by Ted re-living the first episode of season one, standing outside Robin Scherbatsky’s window, raising the blue French horn. Many ardent fans of the show weren’t amused, but that’s neither here nor there. I thought it was a good ending, Ted and Robin.

On the words at the very beginning of this pointless post, I don’t know if better stuff has been spoken at anything I’ve ever watched. Did I shed a tear watching it the first time? I won’t comment on speculation. It’s one of those rare moments that a script as fictional as it is suddenly somehow becomes as close to reality as you’d never have imagined. And my word it was a long and difficult road. At times you felt sad and sorry for the guy Ted. It’s just a television story but in many ways reminiscent of the kind of path we tread on our way to finding love or some semblance to it. He says he knew he had to love that woman for as long as he could and that he could never stop loving her. There. That was just golden. How many people do you hear saying that?

What gripped me the most and really, throughout the series was the impeccable choice of background music for every major scene. When we see glimpses of Ted and Tracy’s life together on pictures at the time he affirms his love for her, a song which rather inadvertently made me do resolve to do this piece plays. It captures the whole moment perfectly. The piano begins, Ted does his talk and I listen intently, eyes firmly fixed.

I know your window and I know it’s late
I know your stairs and your doorway
I walk down your street and past your gate
I stand by the light at the four-way
You watch them as they fall, they all have heart attacks
They stay at the carnival, but they’ll never win you back

Will I see you tonight on a downtown train
Where every night, it’s just the same,
you leave me lonely
Will I see you tonight on a downtown train
All of my tears just fall like rain, all upon the downtown train

It helps a great deal that the actual meeting of the mother took place at a train station and those lyrics above are from Everything But The Girl’s Downtown Train, or doesn’t it, eh? Nice one, Carter (Bays) and Craig (Thomas). Will I see you tonight? I bet that might have gone through the mind of Ted as the old lady at the station’s waiting bay pestered him on his love life. Or maybe not. Maybe he was just too eager to move to Chicago and move away as far as possible from the sight of his soulmate’s(?) wedding to Barney Stinson. I don’t know. But what I know is that many are the times the question ‘will I see you tonight’ has run back and forth in my head. And each time the answer as the song goes has been ‘every night is just the same, you leave me lonely.’ Thankfully for Ted, that night wouldn’t be the same. His loneliness would end. He would meet Tracy. Good for him.

Maybe HIMYM shouldn’t have ended as it did. Maybe Ted and Tracy should have gone through the proverbial happily ever after thing. Then again, life doesn’t turn out as you think it should. And most certainly, not when it pertains to matters of the heart. That was not our story, but Carter’s and Craig’s. Maybe Robin shouldn’t have ended up with Ted. But then again, it’s Robin! I mean, it’s Robin! Who could be better? I’ll still watch and rewatch Last Forever (episode title) many more times over.

At the moment I can only look forward to those 5a.m. Christmas mornings (though to be honest, I don’t get why I’d be up that early), those lazy Sunday afternoons (aha aha), those speed bumps, fits of jealousy, boredom and uncertainty that I’ll get to experience with her. Damn it, it happened for Ted, surely it has to, for me too. Lol.

Oh and more thing, you wave your hand and they scatter like crows. They have nothing that can capture your heart. They’re just thorns without the rose. Be careful of them in the dark. Question remains, will I see you tonight?